illusions

i miss you so

but i have to let you go

lest you got so tangled up

with the mess i call my life.

i'm just a fool

tried so hard to fit the role

futilely grasping straws

of what's real-of what's true.

fell in love with a dream

it's not real so it seems

wishing wouldn't deem it be

just have to face reality.

caught a glimpse

on my reflection

glimpsed a ghost of a smile

and a strangely haunting glance

stopped my tracks

for awhile.

am i really being fair?

let go! that's all that's left somehow

hide within yourself again

before you inflict him with more pain.