illusions

i miss you so

but i have to let you go

lest you got so tangled up

with the mess i call my life.

i'm just a fool

tried so hard to fit the role

futilely grasping straws

of what's real-of what's true.

fell in love with a dream

it's not real so it seems

wishing wouldn't deem it be

just have to face reality.

caught a glimpse

on my reflection

glimpsed a ghost of a smile

and a strangely haunting glance

stopped my tracks

for awhile.

am i really being fair?

let go! that's all that's left somehow

hide within yourself again

before you inflict him with more pain.

Solitude

solitude.

a daunting prospect

but sometimes, a welcome crevice

brings to mind

a song:

Sonnet de Solitud

Don’t leave me in this room

Alone, to face my gloom

Yet how can I ask this---

When you’ve already left me?

Don’t let me feel the night

Despondent, filled with fright

But how can I ask this

When you’ve just left me?

Don’t give me memories

Pretend you like my wishes

Could I still ask you this---

When you’ve already left me?

Don’t try to make me happy

Or keep my tears at bay

How can I wish of this

When you’ve just left me?

Don’t try to ease my pain

Let me walk it through the rain

Could I demand of this

When you’ve already left me?

Don’t try to shield my fall

Look as if you heard my call

Oh, how can I even think

When you’ve just left me?

words and lyrics by mgrj

Myers-Briggs Personality Assessment Result

MS. MARIA GEE R. JACOME You're personality type is Introversion, Intuition, Feeling, Perceiving (INFP)

Summary Full of enthusiasms and loyalties, but seldom talk of these until they know you well. Care about learning, ideas, language, and independent projects of their own. Tend to undertake too much, then somehow get it done. Friendly, but often too absorbed in what they are doing to be sociable. Little concerned with possessions or physical surroundings. Detailed Result INFPs direct their energy towards the inner world of thoughts and emotions. They give importance to particular ideas or beliefs, focusing on those things that they belief in most strongly. They prefer dealing with patterns and possibilities, especially for people. They prefer to undertake work that has a meaningful purpose. What makes an INFP tick? The Dominant function is the judging one of Feeling. Characteristics associated with this function include: Makes decisions on the basis of personal values Is appreciative and accepting of people - enjoying company and seeking harmony Assesses the impact of decisions on others, being sympathetic or compassionate Takes a personal approach The judging Feeling function is introverted. That is, Feeling is used primarily to govern the inner world of thoughts and emotions. The INFP will therefore: develop an inner emotional life that is often unseen to others, but is experienced as intense retain a strong sense of values, which are often not expressed emotionally accept or reject various aspects of life - for example, deciding whether praise or criticism received is valid and, at extreme, ignoring whatever is unacceptable feel appreciation towards others, but not express it The Feeling function is primarily supported by extraverted iNtuitive perception, That is, iNtuitive perception is used primarily to manage the outer world of actions and spoken words. This will modify the way that the Feeling is directed, by: focusing the (inner world) Feeling on ideas and possibilities for people looking for meaningful relationships deciding on friendships through insight into their personality and motivation The classic temperament of an INFP is Apollonian, or Choleric, for whom a basic driving force is the search for meaning or purpose. Contributions to the team of an INFP In a team environment, the INFP can contribute by: promoting insight and common understanding amongst the team contributing well thought out and innovative ideas generating team spirit though sensitive listening and a quiet enthusiasm focusing on areas of agreement and building on others' proposals where there are areas of disagreement, exploring a wide range of options to see if a point of agreement can be found The potential ways in which an INFP can irritate others include: being idealistic appearing out of touch, perhaps not fully recognising current realities, and disregarding those they find unacceptable being stubborn over issues the group did not anticipate being a problem spending too much time thinking avoiding conflict and not giving forthright criticism when it is needed focusing so much on interpersonal issues that cost and other impersonal considerations are not adequately discussed Personal Growth As with all types, the INFP can achieve personal growth by developing all functions that are not fully developed, through actions such as: being prepared to declare the INFP's personal values investigating and recognising the facts before interpreting what they mean listing options and undertaking a formal process of evaluation against criteria, including a cost benefit analysis undertaking a critical appraisal of a situation or person, and expressing disagreement or criticism when it could be of value to the recipient focusing on impersonal details during discussions and when making decisions listing options and undertaking a formal process of evaluation against criteria, including a cost benefit analysis establishing a long term goal, preparing a detailed implementation plan, and sticking to it Recognising Stress As stress increases, 'learned behaviour' tends to give way to the natural style, so the INFP will behave more according to type when under greater stress. For example, in a crisis, the INFP might: concentrate only on what the INFP sees as important work alone if possible contribute creative ideas, but overlook current realities fail to consider the cost implications INFP's careers Accountant/auditor/banker/economist, Teacher, Assistant

lake buhi

witness the splendor, the magnificent and

serene beauty of lake buhi

lake buhi, the lake i love

through the ruins of life

nature upholds

its untamed splendour

rising , struggling

and emerging triumphant

against the test of time.

lake buhi, the valiant knight

of restless dreams

the refuge of ailing hearts

the salve of injured souls

the reflection

of life, itself.

lake buhi

her ripples and waves

make the lifeless

come alive

lake buhi

sweet haven

and retreat

of lovers

lake buhi

an inspiring backdrop

to struggling

life forms

lake buhi

thriving in magnificence

amidst

contemporary thoughts

lake buhi

nestled in

life sustaining

thick foliage

lake buhi

a foretaste of paradise

in a foxhole

we call

earth

lake buhi

catch a glimpse

of cobalt beauty

that emanates

within

lake buhi

reflects

the sapphire glory

of the

heavens

lake buhi

'neath the canopy

of the clear

azure sky

ennui

world-weary

tedium rise

monotony

out of

sight.

complete imperfection

why do you hide

behind

your smile?

is that your sigh

i heard

awhile?

are you catching

rainbows

once more?

reality awaits!

step out

of stupor.

just look

it's empty

can't you see it?

you glimpse a void--

baleful

and

relentless.

but why can't you

tear

your gaze

away?

smile

you can smile

to hide the pain

you'll be broken

then whole again

you can shed

a tear or two

in the end

it's only you.

lost

lost in thought

lost in pain

lost in despair

lost in vain

wishing, someday

will find

myself

again.

alaska, the ultimate destination

naja and tita gee

me and yangga, mah sis

starquest directors: sir melvin, sir jhun, mgrj

my former classmate in graduate school-turned goddaughter (in matrimony, no less lol!) Dhel

the dreamer abreast leo buscaglia's words

my cousin, goddaughter ms marimin nachor, phd

my thesis adviser, mdm epifania nuñez

the smile that will capture a million hearts, courtesy of my godson, jaypee.

a family christmas

My niece's birthday invitation

from front left (counterclockwise): nette, ma, me, josef and john

Nonato Family: Mhel, Naja and my sister nette

with my immediate family

with my ultra special mom

with Josiah Danielle Saltarin Jacome, my beautiful niece

with Josiah Danielle Saltarin Jacome, my beautiful niece

my trip to catanduanes with my mom and friends

my first climb with my mountaineering buddies

hcec's finest mentors ay 2006-2007

my hcec colleagues, friends, co-mind architects

My best friend, Jean Adanie Morante with my two godsons, Jerome and Jason

My niece, Naja Jamhielle Jacome Nonato with friend Dora

Foreword

St. Peter de Alcantara

No tongue can express the greatness of the love which Jesus Christ bears to our souls. He did not wish that between Him and His servants there should be any other pledge than himself, to keep alive the remembrance of Him.

- Saint Peter of Alcantara

The life of St. Peter de Alcantara was an ideal life of penance. He suffered great tribulations to conserve the Rule of St. Francis with severe integrity. His life of reparation was so proverbial in the Franciscan Order that he lived practically on bread and water alone, even during his illnesses. He devised a sort of harness to keep him upright on his seat during the short hour and a half of sleep which he took every day, for forty years. His sackcloth habit and a cloak were his only garments; he never covered his head or feet. In the bitter winter he would open the door and window of his four-and-a-half-feet cell in order that, by closing them again, he might be grateful for the shelter of his cell. Among those whom he guided to perfection were Saint Teresa of Avila, St. Francis de Sales and St. John of the Cross He was often seen prostrated before a large crucifix, shedding torrents of tears. So overpowering were his meditations that he was often seen in levitation.

Once the King went to visit St. Peter and he was nowhere... finally, there he was, about 50 meters high in the sky, and the King waiting... when he finally came down all he was saying was "He Incarnated, He Incarnated, He Incarnated".

Saint Peter died at the age of sixty-three, repeating with the Psalmist, “I rejoiced when it was said unto me, let us go unto the house of the Lord!” The date was October 18, 1562; he was kneeling in prayer.